I had to take a trip to Boston for an appointment on Friday. I went with my Mom & two of my granddaughters… girls trip!Continue reading MY MOMENTS MAY NOT BE EASY, BUT MY MEMORIES WILL BE BEAUTIFUL
I have spent a lot of time thinking about my life, time & choices, since I became sick. But this year with the pandemic and David’s health scare, I realized that I’m not the only one who’s “somedays” are limited. None of us know how many “somedays” we have left. The time has come. Someday is today.Continue reading SOMEDAY IS TODAY
We talk a lot about being grateful, thankful, blessed, positive, and many other things that pertain to how “we” feel. I realized this morning that try as I may, I don’t always let the people who create these feelings in me, know how much they mean to me.
I truly appreciate every minute someone takes time out of their life to think of me. It could be a call, message, card, a joke, anything that makes me forget for one second what I’m dealing with at that moment.
My life would be a million times harder if it wasn’t for the people in my life who make me smile. Smiling is the best, laughter is even better.
For me in my darkest moments, a simple gesture can remind me why I fight. These little things give me the strength to remember who I am!
Who am I? I hope to never know 100% who I am. Learning & growing is a part of living & I like being alive! 😉
I believe my gifts are found in being a caregiver. I am a giver by nature. I take joy in seeing others smile. I especially like to make others find their smiles when I am struggling to find my own.
For these reasons I know what it’s like to want to show someone how much you appreciate them for all the things, they do for you. I don’t believe I’m as good at this as I’d like to be.
I am blessed to be surrounded by some pretty amazing people. In my darkest days, even that is not enough. But all of their “little” gestures shine a little light into the darkness & eventually I find myself feeling better.
Some days the battle between my mind, heart & body turns into a full-blown war. Try as I may, to be positive and strong, I have to submit to feel what screams to be felt and wait for the darkness to pass.
On these days, the “little” things are appreciated beyond measure. The darkness is lonely & painful. I appreciate every single, tiny, little moment of light that is sent my way.
I’m not sure I could ever let people know how much these “little” things mean to me, to my survival, to my will to fight this disease.
I am determined to be better. I will show my appreciation to my husband who never fails to be there when I need him most, to my friends who know me well enough to see I’m in need, & to strangers who hold the door for me or smile while ringing up my groceries. I will be better.
When you live with an incurable, painful & disabling disease, you have an entirely different perspective on life.Continue reading SMILE MAIL, SHENANIGANS & THE TRAVELING LAUGHS
When pain consumes me & my soul is tired, music is my Great Escape.Continue reading MUSIC TAKE ME AWAY
It happens so slowly in the middle of your, “searching for a diagnosis and some help”, storm.Continue reading WHERE IS EVERYONE WHO SAID THEY’D BE THERE?
Continue reading SPARKS IN THE DARK
…and then there’s a brief moment of light & it fuels your soul. You’re ready to continue the battle.
Next up facing the feeding tube discussion with the GI doc. Even thinking about discussing it, makes me cringe.Continue reading LET’S GO BACK PART IX