At multiple points on this crazy ride, I became nothing but a mere shell of flesh & bones.
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WHEN…
When you have an incurable illness, you spend a lot of time going over the why’s.
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SUBTLE CHANGES
Anyone who has battled a chronic illness, knows the struggle of fighting for answers.
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THERE WILL BE NO DANCING TODAY
Today I don’t want to dance.
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PANDEMIC
This damn pandemic.
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I’M FLIPPING EXHAUSTED
Through all my battles, including infusions, I never would have imagined that a body could get this tired.
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WHERE IS EVERYONE WHO SAID THEY’D BE THERE?
It happens so slowly in the middle of your, “searching for a diagnosis and some help”, storm.
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PAIN AND I ARE WELL AQUAINTED
My fB is full of so many who are in pain & requesting prayers. It breaks my heart. Pain & I are well acquainted.
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TIME DOESN’T EASE THE PAIN
I’m going to share some of my old writing throughout the blog. Because time doesn’t ease the pain of some things we go through. Your words matter to those who hear them. Have no doubt we do hear you. ~Em
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“I AM BROKEN”
When I first read this poem it touched my heart. Be patient read it through. Then change perspective and read it again. ❤️ ~Em
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GROCERY SHOPPING
Today I went grocery shopping. Seems simple, right? Well it’s not. Going shopping alone is crazy hard.
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PTSD TRIGGERS
Today I was sitting here and I had 4 phone calls about medical appointments within a 20 minute period. Not one related to the other.
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JUDGEMENT
I’m only being honest and don’t want to offend anyone who works in the ER, as you know I worked in the ER for years, but they rarely know about my disease.
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SPARKS IN THE DARK
Continue reading SPARKS IN THE DARK…and then there’s a brief moment of light & it fuels your soul. You’re ready to continue the battle.
COMPASSION
I had a doctors appointment today.
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HUMILIATION
So here I am at my yearly urology appointment.
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BLESSINGS IN THE DARKNESS
Continue reading BLESSINGS IN THE DARKNESSFaith not fear guides her way.
ABANDONMENT
When you are living with an incurable disease, the best you can hope for is to manage your symptoms and to do everything possible to keep the disease from progressing. It’s what this entails that can push even the baddest badass over the edge.
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My hands are so painful.
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The nurse from my doctors office just called, to tell me I have orders for labs. I asked her what for, her response, “I don’t know, I’ll have to ask the doctor”. 🤦♀️
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